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Just a Rant. Sorry.

• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  So yes, I'm pissed off. Majorly pissed off. Probably over the smallest thing but ya know! I have this amazing ability to tear myself to shreds over what people have done. Normal I throw myself into depression. But this time it's anger. I'm fed up of people treating me like shit all the time. I want respect and to be treated as a friend for once.

  Every single day, you leave a one chair gap on the dinner table next to me. At first it was funny but now it kills me. Everyday I feel like shit by the fact that none of my friends will sit next to me. My paranoia just kicks in and I've convinced myself that something is wrong with me. Everyday, I feel like a piece of shit found on the bottom of your pathetic shoe.

  Today, again at dinner. I decided to leave early the table early to get a drink. You left while I was getting my drink. Meaning you left me behind. You know, maybe I'm being pathetic but I don't really like being left behind. It makes me feel i'm not part of the group. 
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  I caught up with you guys evenutally. And asked if we could sit down on the grass because my leg was hurting me.
  You all said no. Luckily for me, one person decided to sit with me so I wasn't completely alone. But you know, maybe that's my disability being differcult. I didn't mind I guess.

  Well, untill you walked over to the opposite field around 8 meters away and SAT on the grass over there.
  Do you know how shit I felt? How terrible I thought of myself? I felt so abandoned and mocked that you decided instead of joining me on the grass, you decided to actually sit somewhere else. 
  You know, I'm around about fed up of your crap all the time. I'd rather be in solitude then with you guys.

  Even when I am with you, all you do is insult me. Call me gay, stupid, untalented and ugly. You constantly tease me about my past failures and reject any input I give into the conversation.
  You make me doubt whether my fighting was worth it. I don't even know why I live anymore.
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  I feel so much better now.
  Thanks.
• YОU May 23, 2012

  Leave them. Find people who respect you for you. Tell them what you think.
• SeñoritaMafioso May 23, 2012

  I totally feel you, bro 😞
  But I would sit next to you!
• ꅔꉻꐪ꒩ᵀᴸ May 23, 2012

  I know nothing i say can help your situation but you've always got friends on here. We'll listen and do our best to help in any way we can. Assholes like that don't deserve ya anyways.
• 〓 S E E K E R 〓 May 23, 2012

  They are not your friends. Leave them an find others who like you for YOU, not because you allow people to pick on. Sorry you are going through this. But you can do so much better. Trust me, I've gone through this and I allowed it to go on to long. Yes I am stronger for it. But it made me buil a wall around me amd not trust anyone. I don't allow others to get anywhere near close to me. In fear they may hurt me one day. I'm slowly breaking the wall down, but it's an ongoing process that has been happening for many years. I used to push people away if they got to close. I lost a lot of good friends because of it. But te ones I have now, are GREAT friends because they stay with me. Knowing they cant get close, but that I am trying.

  Hope this somewhat helps.
• 🐕Travdog70🐕 May 23, 2012

  Dude those are not friends, I feel sorry for them because they are the ones with the issues
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  I can't find a new group of friends. They are my only friends. I'm not good enough to find anyone else.
• Ѵɪɴᴎγ May 23, 2012

  👣💀 ℜøɢʊɛ💀👣 wrote:

  I know nothing i say can help your situation but you've always got friends on here. We'll listen and do our best to help in any way we can. Assholes like that don't deserve ya anyways.
  

  👆 Agreed. 👍
• ꅔꉻꐪ꒩ᵀᴸ May 23, 2012

  🔰Superyan🔰 wrote:

  I can't find a new group of friends. They are my only friends. I'm not good enough to find anyone else.
  

  There it is. You're better than them. Don't put yourself below them, because you're not. Do what i did. Just go solo for awhile. You'll find people you can relate to eventually. Took me 6 years of waiting to find good friends. Now i consider them just as much family as my own, and i'd die for every one of them. They aren't worth the hurt. There's a point where you need to put your foot down and not take the shit anymore.
• ༎།SཛཀᎢཇΧ།༎ May 23, 2012

  I've been through the same thing, bud. It's really horrible. But I promise it won't last forever. Life constantly changes...Good to bad...Bad to good. And there are 7,000,000,000+ people on this earth. There are plenty of people out there that will accept you. Hope this helps. 👌
• r3volv3r May 23, 2012

  Hey, Ryan! Long time, no see! Sorry to hear your 'friends' are such (word that rhymes with Massholes), but once you get to adulthood, it gets MUCH better. Young people tend to be controlled by insecurity and a need for acceptance. You're better off without those weaklings pulling you down.

  I know it isn't a substitute for real life, but all of us here in TW are true blue for you! We love you, Ryan!
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  Soon I won't have the choice to stay with them. I have I feeling I'm going to break tomorrow and say something if they do anything to me.
  I'll probably not though, I do not have a backbone.
• ! !🐟FishyFinga🐟 May 23, 2012

  Feel the same at times man
  I suffer from deep depression since the age of 9
  Found a sort of relief, I admit the things of myself and emphasise the bad to say that I'm proud to be who I am
  For example I am big and ginger so therefore make fun of myself until I'm proud of it example I say that all I ever do is eat KFC and I don't have a soul
  Think of it this way as its better to hear it from yourself than others
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  I naturally insult myself anyway.
  It doesn't really help me. Guess different stuff works for different people.

  I'm glad you've found a way to cope Fishy. I hope everything gets better for you.
  I hope everything gets better for everyone.
• ! !🐟FishyFinga🐟 May 23, 2012

  Things do improve slightly
  Just try for a different group, maybe somebody you get along with in class instead?
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  I don't get along with anyone else.
  They've made me socially awkward?
  There is only one person I can talk to confidently and that's this 13 year old girl that randomly spoke to me one day. We've become pretty close but I think I'm becoming too attached.
  Yet another thing in ashamed of.
• SeñoritaMafioso May 23, 2012

  🔰Superyan🔰 wrote:

  Soon I won't have the choice to stay with them. I have I feeling I'm going to break tomorrow and say something if they do anything to me.
  I'll probably not though, I do not have a backbone.
  

  Oh buddy, I get it. I always tell myself that I'm going to tell them what they've done and why it's hurtful, but then I never do. I don't want to hurt them back, and I forgive them far too easily.
• SeñoritaMafioso May 23, 2012

  And about the not having any other friends, I get that too. I'm pretty sure most people like me and have fun with me, but we're not close enough to be really good friends. I don't know what your situation is, but I'll be starting college in the fall at a school in a different state where I won't know anyone. It's an opportunity for a fresh start, which will be nice. If you're already in college, just try to make new friends in your classes. It'll be easier because everyone's focusing in areas that interest them, so you'll have more in common with your classmates than you did with people at high school.

  And if you're still in High School, or—God forbid—Middle School, just try to distance yourself. I did that with one of my old bffs after she'd hurt me much longer than I should have allowed, and now we have a very nice relationship. And keep looking out for people with similar interests.

  It'll all get better with time 😊
• Hugh Jass May 23, 2012

  🔰Superyan🔰 wrote:

  You all said no. Luckily for me, one person decided to sit with me so I wasn't completely alone. But you know, maybe that's my disability being differcult. I didn't mind I guess.

  Well, untill you walked over to the opposite field around 8 meters away and SAT on the grass over there.
  Do you know how shit I felt? How terrible I thought of myself? I felt so abandoned and mocked that you decided instead of joining me on the grass, you decided to actually sit somewhere else. 
  You know, I'm around about fed up of your crap all the time. I'd rather be in solitude then with you guys.

  Even when I am with you, all you do is insult me. Call me gay, stupid, untalented and ugly. You constantly tease me about my past failures and reject any input I give into the conversation.
  You make me doubt whether my fighting was worth it. I don't even know why I live anymore.
  

  You're acting feminine again
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  Hugh Jass wrote:

  🔰Superyan🔰 wrote:

  You all said no. Luckily for me, one person decided to sit with me so I wasn't completely alone. But you know, maybe that's my disability being differcult. I didn't mind I guess.

  Well, untill you walked over to the opposite field around 8 meters away and SAT on the grass over there.
  Do you know how shit I felt? How terrible I thought of myself? I felt so abandoned and mocked that you decided instead of joining me on the grass, you decided to actually sit somewhere else. 
  You know, I'm around about fed up of your crap all the time. I'd rather be in solitude then with you guys.

  Even when I am with you, all you do is insult me. Call me gay, stupid, untalented and ugly. You constantly tease me about my past failures and reject any input I give into the conversation.
  You make me doubt whether my .
  

  You're acting feminine again

  Thanks.
• ☠✠Add CTF✠☠ May 23, 2012
  You're acting feminine again
  No not on this thread seriously😡😡😡😡😡😡
• SeñoritaMafioso May 23, 2012

  Hugh Jass wrote:

  You're acting feminine again

  You're a Hugh Jass hole.
• BellaItaliana May 23, 2012

  It usually gets better after high school. People grow up, become less petty, less self-centered, more open-minded.
• Greengo May 23, 2012

  Don't take shit from assholes I don't
  You know what you should do say to them
  If you're gonna treat me like shit fuck off(sorry for the curses)Remember were all friends on here and if someone treats shit fuck em.
• fydge May 23, 2012

  ! !🐟FishyFinga🐟 wrote:

  Feel the same at times man
  I suffer from deep depression since the age of 9
  Found a sort of relief, I admit the things of myself and emphasise the bad to say that I'm proud to be who I am
  For example I am big and ginger so therefore make fun of myself until I'm proud of it example I say that all I ever do is eat KFC and I don't have a soul
  Think of it this way as its better to hear it from yourself than others
  

  Dude lol I'm kinda the same but don't make fun of yourself make fun of others. Apparently people like douchebags and it's worked out for me
• r3volv3r May 23, 2012

  I'm going to make a trip to Michigan just for you, Hugh. I'm gonna make you soil your Huggies!
• ! !🐟FishyFinga🐟 May 23, 2012

  🔰Superyan🔰 wrote:

  I don't get along with anyone else.
  They've made me socially awkward?
  There is only one person I can talk to confidently and that's this 13 year old girl that randomly spoke to me one day. We've become pretty close but I think I'm becoming too attached.
  Yet another thing in ashamed of.
  

  Honestly there are very few good people out there at our age (guessing your 14/5) people are always idiots, just ignore them and attempt at getting along with people that aren't exactly popular yet not also a loner
  I am an ex bully victim from mindless insults etc. I don't think many understand the way your going through
  Whatever way you try to get over it, don't express it slightly or self harm whatsoever as this will just result in further bullying
  Keep experimenting with many ways of expression until you find something effective, maybe see your doctor as 1 of 30 suffer of depression and they are happy to help
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  I'd like to apologise to anyone offended by the part where I said they call me gay.
  I don't consider being homosexual being bad or an insult.
  It just isn't nice to be called everyday.
  Sorry to anyone offended.
• 🔰Superyan🔰 May 23, 2012

  ! !🐟FishyFinga🐟 wrote:

  🔰Superyan🔰 wrote:

  I don't get along with anyone else.
  They've made me socially awkward?
  There is only
  

  Honestly there are very few good people out there at our age (guessing your 14/5) people are always idiots, just ignore them and attempt at getting along with people that aren't exactly popular yet not also a loner
  I am an ex bully victim from mindless insults etc. I don't think many understand the way your going through
  Whatever way you try to get over it, don't express it slightly or self harm whatsoever as this will just result in further bullying
  Keep experimenting with many ways of expression until you find something effective, maybe see your

  I'm 16.
  It exactly approved to be close friends with a 13 year old. It's seen as dodgy.

  I'd prefer to not be give medicine. I've had enough in my life for now.
  I honestly don't feel like anyone will accept me.

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