I'm sorry to anyone I may offend
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I'm not great when it comes with dealing with death 😕 I don't know how to process it well. I come from a family who used to attack me for showing weakness and crying over a death was concidered a weakness. They used to tell me "don't cry for their death, smile for their new life and the memories they left you, they may not be here in person but in your memories they live on"
I was little when they used to say things like that to me so I never understood it til I was older but regardless I can't cry or smile. As I said I can't process it 😕 i revert to my comfort zone which is either comedy or music
Most of you found out the same day that Lep had passed meanwhile I found out much MUCH later on and I didn't know how to process that either and tried to write a song or it (poorly written and unedited but it was a song for my friend so who cares) -
Anyways.... I'm sorry that some of you might get offended if I say stupid things like "I wonder what kind of food they may have at his funeral" that's my way of crying 😕 if I don't say stupid things then i get lost and shut down and seem emotionless, idk what to say or do and that's completely uncomfortable for me so again sorry if I end up upsetting some of you.
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It's all good primo. Everyone grieves differently. ✊Mad luv homie.
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
✊Back at yaIt's all good primo. Everyone grieves differently. ✊Mad luv homie.
Thanks for understanding -
We all have out own way of dealing with things. No one can judge you for how you are coping at this time. Whatever gets you through man. 👍
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No prob P-Loc. 👍
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i still wanna know what happened.
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This is a particularly hard time of year for me P. in sept. 1993 I was in a car with my Lil brother, his girl and her friend. We were hit head on by a semi and I was the only survivor. I have a hard time with it every year but this one in particular is really getting me. I feel trapped inside myself and the grief becomes overwhelming. Panic attacks usually follow shortly after. I attribute it to post traumatic stress but dealing with it my way is the only way I can. No one can tell you how to grieve just like no one can tell you how to feel. Crying isn't weakness. Letting others try to control your feelings is weakness. Do you brother, do you......
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Dude don't stress.
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Crying is NOT a sign of weakness it shows that your a humanbeing that cares for others , but different people grieve in different ways alls good 👍
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
Goodness man! I couldn't imagine. Sorry to hear that. Glad to see you're staying strong.This is a particularly hard time of year for me P. in sept. 1993 I was in a car with my Lil brother, his girl and her friend. We were hit head on by a semi and I was the only survivor. I have a hard time with it every year but this one in particular is really getting me. I feel trapped inside myself and the grief becomes overwhelming. Panic attacks usually follow shortly after. I attribute it to post traumatic stress but dealing with it my way is the only way I can. No one can tell you how to grieve just like no one can tell you how to feel. Crying isn't weakness. Letting others try to control your feelings is weakness. Do you brother, do you......
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You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only option. Besides, I can't give up. I have too many people to prove wrong! :P
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
I think it takes a courageous person to openly speak about their fears. You never know just who you're reaching when you do. Not everyone who reads will reply, but it doesn't mean they weren't effected by what you shared. Much respect 👍This is a particularly hard time of year for me P. in sept. 1993 I was in a car with my Lil brother, his girl and her friend. We were hit head on by a semi and I was the only survivor. I have a hard time with it every year but this one in particular is really getting me. I feel trapped inside myself and the grief becomes overwhelming. Panic attacks usually follow shortly after. I attribute it to post traumatic stress but dealing with it my way is the only way I can. No one can tell you how to grieve just like no one can tell you how to feel. Crying isn't weakness. Letting others try to control your feelings is weakness. Do you brother, do you......
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
It's all good primo. Everyone grieves differently. ✊Mad luv homie.
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
I have dealt with it my whole life bus , and I was too little to remember what happened but being the only survivor from an accident makes you stronger wether you realize it or notYou never know how strong you are until being strong is your only option. Besides, I can't give up. I have too many people to prove wrong! :P
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
Well said 👍You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only option. Besides, I can't give up. I have too many people to prove wrong! :P
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
I feel you Bro, Both my brothers got killed on this month years ago, each one on a different year but same month. One being older than me and the other younger. My family calls this month the bad luck month for us.This is a particularly hard time of year for me P. in sept. 1993 I was in a car with my Lil brother, his girl and her friend. We were hit head on by a semi and I was the only survivor. I have a hard time with it every year but this one in particular is really getting me. I feel trapped inside myself and the grief becomes overwhelming. Panic attacks usually follow shortly after. I attribute it to post traumatic stress but dealing with it my way is the only way I can. No one can tell you how to grieve just like no one can tell you how to feel. Crying isn't weakness. Letting others try to control your feelings is weakness. Do you brother, do you......
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Loco you really are loco ! But it's all good bro 👍
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As long as you all understand, thank again. Btw hotrod I realized that haha I learned to change my life around after hearing will smith's cover song (back when he was the fresh prince) of "just the two of us"
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Everyone deals in their own way. Do what is best for you, not for anyone else ✊
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wulfie wrote:
No sir I do not and wulfie maybe it's just a bad luck month in general〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
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Most of my family deaths all happen in this month (granted I didn't know a lot of them real well because we don't keep ties but its still family)
MY AGE___THEIR AGE
8 months in my mom ___ grandpa aides3_______cousin 14 (ran over)
5______ months old baby cousin (brain was undeveloped) died in his sleep
5_______uncle "?" (shot in front of me)
6________cousin 17 leaving the hood for the military (shot on mistaken identity)
9________uncle 30 something (killed in prison by rival gang members)
13_______60+ step dad's father (old age)
18____ real dads father (not sure I honestly thought he died years ago)
19_____ cousin 26 (college foot ball head injury)
I'm gonna be 21 next month
So far nothing this year (I'm excluding friends) this month got some dark times in general -
YOU wrote:
Anyways as I said I hardly knew most of them and the point of the thread was for you guys to understand and now that I see you do I won't feel too bad if I say something dumb out of nervousnessDam now that I count it THATS ALOT 😳😕 never seemed that much before
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P😈Loco(E771) wrote:
We all say dumb shit when we're nervous. Just shows your human and that you care. That's a good thing, P.YOU wrote:
Anyways as I said I hardly knew most of them and the point of the thread was for you guys to understand and now that I see you do I won't feel too bad if I say something dumb out of nervousnessDam now that I count it THATS ALOT 😳😕 never seemed that much before
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
I wish I could level with you on this one but I can't. I was in a wreck in which I hydroplaned into oncoming traffic and after having a head on collision at 40 I was sandwiched by a car behind me who also lost control. It was my girlfriend and I in the vehicle and while she was severely injured she pulled through. I walked away without so much as a scratch. But I know the fear. I felt it in the split second before impact.This is a particularly hard time of year for me P. in sept. 1993 I was in a car with my Lil brother, his girl and her friend. We were hit head on by a semi and I was the only survivor.
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Schmidty wrote:
Dam human instinctsP😈Loco(E771) wrote:
We all say dumb shit when we're nervous. Just shows your human and that you care. That's a good thing, P.YOU wrote:
Anyways as I said I hardly knew most of them and the point of the thread was for you guys to understand and now that I see you do I won't feel too bad if I say something dumb out of nervousnessDam now that I count it THATS ALOT 😳😕 never seemed that much before
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When I die can one of you guys please show up to my funeral and make a joke saying the bathroom finally won
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P😈Loco(E771) wrote:
Sure man. I'll make that joke for you dude. 😊When I die can one of you guys please show up to my funeral and make a joke saying the bathroom finally won
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Kaͣrͩaͩs wrote:
As long as Junior promises not to kick my ass....P😈Loco(E771) wrote:
Sure man. I'll make that joke for you dude. 😊When I die can one of you guys please show up to my funeral and make a joke saying the bathroom finally won
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
Oh yeah.... He's the touchy one fuck it ill put it in my list of my last wishes 😁Kaͣrͩaͩs wrote:
As long as Junior promises not to kick my ass....P😈Loco(E771) wrote:
Sure man. I'll make that joke for you dude. 😊When I die can one of you guys please show up to my funeral and make a joke saying the bathroom finally won
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Kaͣrͩaͩs wrote:
😄 SweetP😈Loco(E771) wrote:
Sure man. I'll make that joke for you dude. 😊When I die can one of you guys please show up to my funeral and make a joke saying the bathroom finally won
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〓 MR71VWBUS 〓 wrote:
Primo my old buddy, I understand. I was brought up similarly, and have real trouble showing emotion. You're alright mate ... we are all shocked by the news and everyone displays it differently.It's all good primo. Everyone grieves differently. ✊Mad luv homie.
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